Have you ever had one of those days where it seems like you're walking through a dream but it's reality? That nothing else could ever go wrong but it does anyways? I'm sure you have.
Those days are what slowly kill me. I can't handle the fact that maybe none of these actions I perform will make a difference tomorrow. I have this idea in my head that I have to make a difference somewhere every day or that day was a waste. It drains my energy and makes me depressed but feels so fulfilling.
And then, those days happen and it all comes crashing down. Those are the days when I break down and ignore the world. I shut down completely. It feels like a monster that will take me over for good, one day.

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Let me in.
Let me into your life.

I can help you.
I can heal you.

Your heart is where I dwell.
Your heart is where you're broken.

I value your life.
I value your dreams.

Please, let me in.
Please, let me love you.

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Do I know you? Who are you?
I've met you before? When?
Oh.. I can't remember.
Why can't I remember?
Did you say we are together?
I'm sorry but I don't even remember you.
You could be anyone. I can't remember.
I can't believe you in this state.
I can't trust anyone.
I know, I'm sorry.
I don't remember if we're in love.
I'm sorry.
I can't remember.
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Can you imagine standing at the summit of the infamous mount Everest? Seeing the world from 29,029 ft. For those who are not nature enthusiasts, I apologize that you will never experience the awe of connecting with the real world. The world of steel and concrete is not the real world, if you already guessed. That is the man-made world that will destroy the Earth. You can say that that won't happen for another hundreds of years. Well, it doesn't matter. The amazing wonders of the natural world will disappear. And if you say you don't care, well, you're an idiot. I'm sorry, but you are. The world isn't all for the human race. We're the most greedy species on this Earth. We take what we want and destroy the homes of thousands of animals. Most people don't understand the way their lives affect animals, and most never care. Please, take into consideration the lives of the animals.
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The sun burns her skin
As the stars hide from stricken fear
The trees are bare
And the spirits show no reality
From her life comes the sorrow
From her love comes the hope

The moon washes the sins away
The stars cradle her broken body
As the black universe smiles loudly
Her lover weeps
Her angel stares into her cold eyes
Asking with grief
Forgive, forgive
My guardian failed

The flowers that wilt
The fakes that live
Will we ever know the truth?
Innocence is betrayed
Envy is forever here
Forgive me, forgive me.
I will leave you be.

A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8



My parents are Catholic. My friends are Methodist. I do not believe in either.
When you think of catholic, do you think statue worshipping bible thumper radicals? I think of regular people just being together through God. We recognize saints as a way to help us pray, not to worship. So, stop believing stereotypes. The only person you're hurting is yourself.

I do not believe in God. I believe in no religious figure. I believe that something out there is controlling the universe. Every god that has ever been created for religion is the same. They all have the purpose of explaining the unexplainable and to give a straight path to one's life. So we aren't scared. So we don't become lost in the world. So we don't give up.

Miracles do happen.

Think about it.

Miracles.

Do you think of cancer parents being miraculously cured?
Or of just a simple flower growing in a desert?

Do you think of a person being saved at the last second before death?
Or of two people meeting and have that instant "click"?

Do you think of a little kid surviving a fatal drowning that should have killed him?
Or of Fate controlling our future to make our dreams come true?

And, for instance, what about magic?
Could miracles and magic be the same?

Think of a flower growing in a desert.
Absolutely no water around, no cloud in the sky.
But, this plant still sees the need to live and thrive under those harsh conditions?
Why?
How?

Think of two people meeting. Small conversation and a few smiles.
Think of those two people a few months later. Did they fall apart or fall together?
What if those two people fell in love and survived a lifetime?
That's magic. Or is it a miracle? Or both?

Miracle
- an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
- such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God.
- a wonder; marvel.

Or, a work of unexplainable causes.

Magic
- the art of producing illusions as entertainment by the use of sleight of hand, deceptive devices, etc.; legerdemain; conjuring: to pull a rabbit out of a hat by magic.
- the art of producing a desired effect or result through the use of incantation or various other techniques that presumably assure human control of supernatural agencies or the forces of nature.

Or, a work of explainable causes.

Rules for Miracles:
Don't look for them.
The small ones are the most important ones.
Don't ignore them either.
Miracles can be good or bad.
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Love
- a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
- a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
- sexual passion or desire.
- a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

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What if you died?
Would you be missed?
Will you ask why?
Why did this happen to me?
How could I die?
Who will remember me?

Or will you let go?
Will you let go of the Earth as one of your possessions and continue living even after death?